Abraham Well Being Cruise Notes from July 4th through 9th 2004
by Carol Ayres
“Joy, joy, joy!” Not growth, growth, growth. Jerry used to juggle on a cruise ship. Hee. Be on path of joy. Work to sort through contrast to find what you want. Formulate desires. Guy worked on a newspaper, napped & got job offer at better place, stuff just kept being offered when he was frustrated with where he was. What’s that about, with LOA saying you can’t think about what you don’t want and get what you do want? Answer was that the balance of your desire was stronger than your drumbeating of “where you are”. Balance of desire was stronger than beliefs. Don’t try too hard to think your way through this – feel your way through this.
Actress who wants to manifest career NOW. People say, Universe you know who I am, but ignore that. Figure out who I’ll want to be and figure it out for me and get me there now. Let’s be DONE. Would rob you of the unfolding. Say, “Bring me the best of what I’m able to receive now”. Universe, I’m an evolving being – making the best of where I am now. Relax where you are. Savor what’s coming. Close crevasse of lack. Get into rampage of appreciation where you are. You will always be slightly dissatisfied, I want more, I want more.
How come nobody can make a Stradivarius now? Too many other entertainment options available. Well, don’t beat the drum of “there are no artisans anymore.” Why is she hearing-impaired? To help her to tune out outside voices. Know it (guidance) comes from within. Guy told her she’d get hearing back. How? Only think about what you want and why you want it. You don’t want to push pistons in the car. Don’t say you are “hearing-impaired” & beat the drum of that. Play down any deficiency – play up your benefits. Don’t feel resistant about surgery/hearing aid any more than glasses. She wants to heal her hearing to inspire others as a teacher. So they will believe her. “I must be perfect to be the example of what I am teaching.” Pitfall – everybody wants different miracles from you. Relax – they won’t hold you to every last detail. It is impossible to “lead the perfect life”. Audiences enjoy the tale of suffering to triumph. Dig yourself into hole, then dig out. They eat it up.
A guy cried when speaking to Abe (out of appreciation and love), and apologizes for it. Abe – “Shame on you”. (hee hee) Take an emotional journey, not a physical journey. Don’t let the one part that hurts get all the attention. Focus on the parts that feel good. You can’t feel hopeful about healing. If something needs healing, you are focused on a problem.
Pre-cruise resistance – she was afraid of losing her clothes. Then she rode Esther’s energy wave to feel better. You can ride your own energy wave you prepaved before you got here. Esther dreamed two nights in a row that she lost her driver’s license before the cruise. Some of us (to get to cruise) had perfect ease and some of us had little traumas along the way. Just the way it usually works for us. But we all made it here. Sculptor does not just plop a wad of clay on the table and that one step makes a perfect sculpture. You did NOT feel tension and discord and then cancel the cruise. SOME DID. (You should) want just beyond your ability to receive – then work yourself into vibrational alignment. Then do it again. Use dreams to call & enlighten you, not to torture you. Take smaller steps forward. But some of you like the drama and adventure of steps T H I S far. Don’t guide yourself through the eyes of anybody outside you. Life is supposed to be good to you and it’s trying hard to do that. Most people expect a kind of large amount of struggle to get something good. You let in the cruise – Milk it! You made it happen. It started on Independence Day – Yay! Let’s call that day Day of Allowing. So you are in Yuma, so what? So you feel hopelessness. It doesn’t matter where you are, it matters where you want to go. Horse fell on your feet. Get new feet! Stay on point. Stay focused. So you know where you are on that topic. Then when you make a shift, you believe it will affect reality
Co-parenting lesbians’ 17-year-old daughter – Mother wants partner to not hassle her daughter about cleaning house to her schedule, etc. Leave daughter alone! She’s 17! Not my job to comply with what anybody else wants. Desire relative to daughter? For her to be herself, to do as she wills. She feels assured that she will. Desire relative to partner – I just want to feel good. Setpoint – at frustration. Nothing gets a mother bear more agitated than messing with her cub. It is not wrong where you are. ALL OF YOU. I am OK – morally, etc., where I am! “I should never have needed you to be more loveable in order for me to love you”.
African guy – I believed God was a wicked god. Is my passageway open? Yes, it is right now, but it is not like a college degree and once you have it, you have it. But it is situational. Guy keeps a lucky journal. Abe – we like that. Guy wants success as loan officer. Choose your favorite loan experience in the past – what you liked about it. Remember the experience. Beat the drum of that. Universe scouts for that to bring again. Take pleasure in remembering, take pleasure in anticipating. In journey from Phoenix to San Diego, enjoy the beauty of the desert on the trip. Expect to get chosen – get picky about what you choose. Broadcast your advertisement. Guy says he has a threat for Abe. (?!) Has emotional ties to original country, wants to help. Should run for president? No. He wants to physically birth a baby. How much do you really want it? How much work are you willing to do to get in vibrational alignment with it? You can dream it and have it in dream manifestation. Or, the bodies of humans can evolve eventually to where guys can birth babies.
What is aging? There are seasons & cycles to everything living. It is not designed to last forever. Laurel (Jerry’s grandkid) said to Jerry (upon knowing he had had a birthday) -- you look older! It was a compliment. Good thing! It is not necessary for you ever to decline. Declining is about resistance. Maturing is different. It is preprogrammed and expected. No negative slant to it till we put that interpretation on it. You can change with your thoughts how you evolve. Pick an age and practice feeling of it and your body will succumb. We recommend that to everyone. Get that feeling. Do something that feels believable, so you don’t get flack back from others. Find not an age, but a lifestyle. Not an age but a feeling. Sometimes you don’t see your manifestation. (It didn’t look the way you thought it would.) You miss it. So don’t look for manifestation. Feel for it. When you express a desire, 20 or more (closer to 100) paths immediately open for its fulfillment. Human tendency is to say I’m here. I want to be elsewhere. I’m so embarrassed at not being there. I must justify why I’m here. Can be light, soft vibe, but it prevents instant manifestation.
New J&E game – do we want more of THIS? (When dwelling on unwanted thing that has happened.) Each time you do notice the good manifestation came, little by little you get the expectation of things coming your way. Want you to get the satisfying feel of desire & not having it yet, but believing it will come. Anticipation. Optimism. Here I am, I feel good, I want more, I’m not a complete being. Titillated interest. More new folks come in (to my life) and give me new ideas. If you want it and you don’t have it, it’s on the way. Your pleasure is my pleasure.
Creator says she’s had tremendous success, but when getting a new desire, feels disappointed and frustrated. Oh, no, I have to do THIS again, move up the trail. It feels like a tremendous amount of work. That means that the habit of vibration is far enough from whatever you are asking for that it’s a quantum leap up the emotional scale. Why are you stretching so hard that it’s uncomfortable? Don’t want to be eternal incomplete being. That’s perfectionism. Begin feeling the joy of the journey. You’re trying to take too big a jump. I NEED to find a new office by end of July. Big difference between need and want. Need is trying to fix something broken. You’re going about it the hard way. Creation is only about aligning vibrations of desire and negative balance of pattern of thought. You just want to be happier on a consistent basis. You must keep up with the desires you’ve birthed. Stay up to speed with who you’ve become.
Guy is using all the processes, where’s the money? Processes are not heavy-duty enough. You aren’t high enough on the vibrational scale (on that subject) to use the processes. You are probably thinking you are doing something wrong. Try not to feel so judgmental about yourself about where you are on this. Stale desire, is a (negative) declaration on you, you think. It is embarrassing. Acknowledge that you feel hopeless (about a subject), if you do. Then you can move up the emotional scale. Feel it viscerally in solar plexus. One the financial wellbeing subject, get angry! Have you learned to suppress anger? Yes, unless I’ve been drinking. (Have a drink now, in that case. Hee hee.) When things don’t go well, you take responsibility and blame yourself. That stays at powerless. Find someone else to get mad at, please. Reach for air – get angry on purpose. It’s a survival process. Little kids do it anytime you make them feel powerless. “I feel the relief of my effort, by getting angry on purpose.”
Long-time Aber – parents ( parental units from Saturday Night Live - PU’s) died – he began questioning self, and felt set adrift. He needs deeper reasons now to be happy than he did before. His allowing decreased. Why did the PU’s being gone set me off-kilter? It is upsetting because children see and expect the majority of their well-being to come through the parent. (Even when you are older, you still care so much what PU’s think of you.) Most people don’t really accept autonomy until their PU’s are dead. That is when we are born (again.) They represent your vibrational roots. Reality doesn’t mean diddly squat. How I feel about it is IT! Stop judging where you are (comparing now with how good he used to feel/be.) The glacier (Hubbard) calving when the Abe group was looking at it – Esther (and all of us) did that. He wants hard evidence of his inner being. Ask for a twitch (of a body part you cannot twitch) next time you meditate. That is evidence of connection. There is a vibrational signature each of us has. Control your experience only from an emotional level. Let the concierge in the sky handle all the details. Be a “deliberate creator” but let the details not be your work. What about “irrational fears”? Abe – all fears are irrational.
Son, gets in violent situations, 3 times in jail, only 17. Hard to separate as a mom, in her thoughts. Soothe necessity to explain where son stands or where you stand in relation to son. It is not a statement of your failure. Soften all that into just a path along the way. Make peace with it. Let it not be more significant than where you ate lunch. Rebuild relationship with this person by remembering, etc., stuff you appreciate.
Felt awful at end of magic show – why? Don’t try to figure out why. It’s like getting a nasty item off of the buffet, then tasting every item again to figure out which one it is (to protect against it in future.) Wrong thing to do. “Protecting against it” brings it to you. Just because something’s happening now, doesn’t mean it deserves your attention. (At this point, there is a creaking groaning noise coming from the upper balcony/ceiling of the meeting room. How many of you worried about what that was? Most raised their hands.) If you can move from unworthiness to hopefulness, Abe would rather see that than someone bubbling in ecstasy. It’s about movement. Don’t compare (yourself and where you are with where someone else is.) Don’t be dependent on anyone else for anything. Compare YOUR effervescence to where it was a moment ago. (Not to your roommate’s effervescence). Sneak in the back door, don’t try to make up a thought to get to feel good. Feel your way. Get a good vibration and let that generate thoughts that feel good. Focus inwardly. Only freedom that exists is by selfishly choosing thought that feels good. You can teach at any level. You don’t have to be in ecstasy. Make the decision that you have the power. You physical beings cling to reality, as if it means anything. I am free. Don’t need one thing to change in order to feel good. Be an obnoxious rebel whom others disapprove of and don’t care. Ask and it is given. Believe it. Make your request and just know that someone’s on it. Like room service. Listen for the knock on the door, or just open the door on a regular basis. Assign credit only to yourself for what’s come to you. (Like the cruise.) Don’t be so grateful to others. You did it. Keep saying that, I did that, I did that.
What will become of our interaction w/Abraham when Esther is gone? Esther is not the only interpreter. But she has put good words to it. Esther did not have many opinions, just wanted to be uplifter and have a good time. Jerry is the asker. Esther is the open vessel. She had no vocabulary at first (for the Abe blocks of thought), but a good grasp of the English language and a quiet mind without disagreements. Esther built new language over time – new combinations of thoughts. Other channels are here, too, springboard with their askings. There will always be someone (after Esther is gone.)
Be expectant of good things to come. Every moment has the potential of culmination of really good things you’ve lined up. Get up every morning & anticipate the cruise you’re on today. Look at the program on your bed. You have a nonphysical staff aware of your requests. How can I finally feel good enough about who I am and where I am in order to finally allow in. Like myself right now as best I can. Only compare with yourself. “I feel better about myself than I did and I did it on purpose myself.” Your work – like yourself enough to let it in – to let God flow through me. People will ask, what is your secret? See everyone who comes to you as an answer to what you are looking for.
When launching a new idea, do the following. Clarify what you are wanting – your new idea – till your vibration can be dominant. Then talk to others of the idea. “Doing allowing” vs. “being allowing”. Action can be fun. Abe is not teaching non-action. Just teaching getting the allowing vibe first. Do more visualizing. For everything you want, not fewer than 20 culminations are ready to pop. Esther had on her to-do list for a very long time to make some airline reservations. Jerry kept saying, have you done those reservations yet? For some reason, she just did not want to do it, so she didn’t. One night she was already in bed and decided that she wanted to do it then, so she got up & called. Had the greatest res. agent ever, who got all the flights ticketed plus upgrades to first class in the time it usually took to get one reservation made. This is inspiration vs. motivation. Do what you want to do. Apply the emotional scale process. Say that you get back from the cruise and you don’t want to go to work. Sensation of bondage. So you say, I’m not going to work. You can tell by how you feel, if that makes you feel bad. “Folks are depending on me – my paycheck depends on my being there and I do need my paycheck.” Then you go, and you feel resignation. On your commute, you feel resistance again, knot in stomach, and so you say, well I do like my co-workers and I do want to tell people about my cruise experience.” You come into alignment and you feel OK about going. You moved the vibe enough. You’re vibed up and have a better day. You get better recognition of your abilities. Then you’re proud to be at work. Those surprises are everywhere. Rendezvous with source can happen in various frameworks. I make the best of it now. Look for evidence that you are appropriate. The activation process is gradual. (Don’t take score too soon – or you may conclude you are the same failure at this as at everything else! -- For those of us who are hard on ourselves.) Show yourself you can focus and affect your feelings a bit. Learn to love even if they’re not loveable. Acknowledge how far you’ve come. It’s all for the sake of feeling good. Rendezvous – wonderful word.
Roulette question, walked to the table, one number picked and hits. Question was about getting feeling that the number will hit and it does, then another time getting the feeling and it does not hit. Probing indicated the feeling was strong excitement. Calm expectation is better than excitement (in terms of knowing the manifestation is imminent.) Not just on cruise, get expectations going of things turning out for you as you wish in more situations than just cruise situation. There’s no test here. You are not here testing your alignment with Universe, you’re here to have fun. Same thing in the casino, don’t try to hit numbers to test how aligned you are. It’s a screwy comparison with someone else. Seeing your own life through someone else’s eyes. Easier to feel lucky when you are alone. (So you are not trying to prove to someone else how together you are.) You are all trying so hard to be perfect. You willed yourself into alignment – did not need a lucky manifestation to prove it to yourself. Do you create your own reality to show off to others? Worth pondering – do you focus on purpose to try to effect some manifestation or to enjoy feeling of energy alignment? Pleasure of sensation of energy alignment. Abe – we always feel good. It is inevitable for me to get what I want – it is just a matter of timing. You can tell how close or far by how you feel. With practice, you can tell what it feels like when you’re summoning and what it feels like when you are allowing. (Not off-the-wall excitement.) Don’t be so invested in the manifestation. Self-scrutiny and looking at facts about where you are slows down stuff. Any place you are cannot be judged as inappropriate. Don’t let desires languish out there so long they’re stale. It discourages other manifestations.
Masseuse – pain in hands, resistance? Wants transition to intuitive worker. Lots of body-workers see themselves as flow-ers of energy. Flow to client’s area of need. The client really doesn’t need you at all. Their cells are requesting. They’re on their way to alignment. You don’t need to be their vortex. Just be an assistant to their allowing. Soft soothing them. Soft touch from someone who expects their improvement. Don’t do the self-condemnation – “I of all people should know better than this.” Don’t do that, laugh at yourself. Like Jerry & Esther do when they mis-create, “We don’t live it, we just teach it.”
Why do some people have an accident and croak vs. just breaking an ankle? Because death is the next logical step because they are asking for more than can be supplied in this time/space reality given their vibration. Beasts want to be influencers of allowing. They are a powerful balancing force.
Why would a blind fawn come to you? You are looking for evidence of well-being. Sift through what’s there and look for evidence of well-being. Person wants to give others a hand up. Leave them alone. Fine line between hand up and interfering. You can give someone an action-oriented hand up and a vibration that knocks the legs out from under them. (By thinking “poor them, they need help”.) Don’t give help from place about being upset about “poor them”. In your suicide note, you will say, “I just can’t help these people!” You look for the maimed to help in order to justify your existence. Looking for broken things to fix. What caused this rendezvous? What’s active in your vibration?
Abe says to us, “You could not disappoint us”. Our only desire is that you have a good time in this process.